pada suatu hari
Pada suatu hari, form 4, tahun 2012.
Lama dah cerita ni ingat tak ingat je. Aku ada jerawat dekat muka. Maklumlah baru baligh sorry dah lama baligh tapi jerawat tu baru baru nak datang bertenggek pada muka aku. So rasa insecure yang teramat bila pegi sekolah. Pakai cream pejadah semua tak ada kesan. Iklan kata sehari boleh surut, false advertising betul, bak mai duit aku!
Jadi, aku pon selongkar laci mak aku, dan pinjam, actually curi tapi pulang balik foundation powder mak, bawak pegi sekolah. sekolah tak bagi pakai mekap, tapi ni masalah serius kot. Dengan foundation itu, aku pun dok tepeklah jerawat konon hilang tapi nampak jugaklah jerawat tu.
There were years of feeling insecure everytime a jerawat pops up. Kekadang tak besar pun tapi risaunya macam kene pulau dengan satu batch kalau ada jerawat.
It was hard at first,sure. You see all the things that tou try to hide underneath an ever layer of make-up or a nice, distractingly fancy shawl, all the things that you afraid people would see when they talk to you face-to-face, up close. You're afraid they would pass judgement of your imperfections, your old scars, your every premature wrinkle.
I embraced every blackhead, every pimple, every layer of eyeluggage it's bigger than bag, every flab, every strectmark, every uneven surface.
Now, tengok cermin, I say
"you're hot."
never forget that. Ok not all that, but I do feel I'm beautiful to my eyes, because He gave me all this minute details, that sums up to be one of the quintrillion branches of many of His perfect creations.
--💕-- today
Pada suatu hari, aku merupakan seorang remaja yang mudah terpengaruh dengan ideologi dan persepsi masyarakat.
Pegi mall, pakai baju ni.
Pegi Tesco, pakai baju tu.
Pegi kenduri, pakai baju kurung shawl lilit lilit tengkuk kasut lawa.
Tido, pakai kain batik.
One time, aku tanya diri sendiri,
"Apa perlu kita beruniform mengikut tempat cuaca dan fesyen sekarang?"
Kalau pakai kebaya tapi senak perut pastu susah nak nafas acano? why can't i wear baju kelawar pergi mall?
Nothin's stopping me, really. Tak ada sebab nak pakai baju bling-bling yang cantik on the outside dan kasar on the inside, tak ada sebab nak pakai heels, kalau nak lari dari orang jahat kan ke susah? tapi kalau terer boleh lah bersilat sambil pakai heels. It doesn't bring me comfort, so why force myself to look good just for the sake of looking presentable?
Simple doesn't mean selekeh.
Kemas doesn't mean fancy.
Aku masih pakai tudung bawal segitiga sebab senang, selesa. Aku tak pilih untuk pakai shawl well korang tahu orang yang tak pro kalau lilit shawl takes ten thousand years untuk pakai tu pun belum tentu betul.
I'm not saying you should do the same. I'm just saying why I wear what I wear pakai kain batik pegi office, baju kelawar pegi nearest mall. I just didn't want to give any comment about how I should look. How do I good looking or not. So I say, fakkit.
Again, benda ni apply kat apa saja. Kalau korang rasa selesa pakai mekap dan baju cantik, it's your right to do. But yeah, don't judge the person by what they don't wear be baju cantik or tudung. Let their personality and their words shine through what ever skin their choose to wear
Lama dah cerita ni ingat tak ingat je. Aku ada jerawat dekat muka. Maklumlah baru baligh sorry dah lama baligh tapi jerawat tu baru baru nak datang bertenggek pada muka aku. So rasa insecure yang teramat bila pegi sekolah. Pakai cream pejadah semua tak ada kesan. Iklan kata sehari boleh surut, false advertising betul, bak mai duit aku!
Jadi, aku pon selongkar laci mak aku, dan pinjam, actually curi tapi pulang balik foundation powder mak, bawak pegi sekolah. sekolah tak bagi pakai mekap, tapi ni masalah serius kot. Dengan foundation itu, aku pun dok tepeklah jerawat konon hilang tapi nampak jugaklah jerawat tu.
There were years of feeling insecure everytime a jerawat pops up. Kekadang tak besar pun tapi risaunya macam kene pulau dengan satu batch kalau ada jerawat.
It was hard at first,sure. You see all the things that tou try to hide underneath an ever layer of make-up or a nice, distractingly fancy shawl, all the things that you afraid people would see when they talk to you face-to-face, up close. You're afraid they would pass judgement of your imperfections, your old scars, your every premature wrinkle.
I embraced every blackhead, every pimple, every layer of eyeluggage it's bigger than bag, every flab, every strectmark, every uneven surface.
Now, tengok cermin, I say
"you're hot."
never forget that. Ok not all that, but I do feel I'm beautiful to my eyes, because He gave me all this minute details, that sums up to be one of the quintrillion branches of many of His perfect creations.
--💕-- today
Pada suatu hari, aku merupakan seorang remaja yang mudah terpengaruh dengan ideologi dan persepsi masyarakat.
Pegi mall, pakai baju ni.
Pegi Tesco, pakai baju tu.
Pegi kenduri, pakai baju kurung shawl lilit lilit tengkuk kasut lawa.
Tido, pakai kain batik.
One time, aku tanya diri sendiri,
"Apa perlu kita beruniform mengikut tempat cuaca dan fesyen sekarang?"
Kalau pakai kebaya tapi senak perut pastu susah nak nafas acano? why can't i wear baju kelawar pergi mall?
Nothin's stopping me, really. Tak ada sebab nak pakai baju bling-bling yang cantik on the outside dan kasar on the inside, tak ada sebab nak pakai heels, kalau nak lari dari orang jahat kan ke susah? tapi kalau terer boleh lah bersilat sambil pakai heels. It doesn't bring me comfort, so why force myself to look good just for the sake of looking presentable?
Simple doesn't mean selekeh.
Kemas doesn't mean fancy.
Aku masih pakai tudung bawal segitiga sebab senang, selesa. Aku tak pilih untuk pakai shawl well korang tahu orang yang tak pro kalau lilit shawl takes ten thousand years untuk pakai tu pun belum tentu betul.
I'm not saying you should do the same. I'm just saying why I wear what I wear pakai kain batik pegi office, baju kelawar pegi nearest mall. I just didn't want to give any comment about how I should look. How do I good looking or not. So I say, fakkit.
Again, benda ni apply kat apa saja. Kalau korang rasa selesa pakai mekap dan baju cantik, it's your right to do. But yeah, don't judge the person by what they don't wear be baju cantik or tudung. Let their personality and their words shine through what ever skin their choose to wear
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